Confusion Follows

I would like to say 2009 is going grrrrrreat... but I don't know anymore. Everywhere I go... confusion follows.

School: School has been so far so good. Although I have not really opened a book yet, I'm enjoying my classes. My teachers are pretty swell and to top it off I have Wang in two out of five of my classes. But damn is he bugging! Haha! And WOW do I love solution manuals! <3

Work: I'm starting to wonder if I should stick with this job or start looking else where. As much as I love most of my co-workers, the pay ain't so great anymore as it was in the beginning and during winter break. And the fact that they're cutting down on employees and what not... I feel I should rethink if this is what I wanna keep doing. =/

Social life: Wow! Too much drinking! I think ever since Winter break, the joy of going to Downtown Fullerton, and Frio turning 21, I have become an alcoholic! -_- Whomp! It's pretty sad because I can slowly feel those empty calories weighing me down. I think I need a break. No more DTF for awhile... unless it's on a Tuesday. Haha!! But I love my "homeboys!" Rodneeeee and Frio (still waiting on you Prieto!) Without these guys... I don't even know. Seriously!

Family: Yes... we have issues... thanks to my "wonderful", selfish brothers. But I don't want to get into that. All I need to say about that is unless you have a reason to treat your parents like shiet, you owe them your life if it was because of them you are where you are right now. I love my parents and I could not have asked for better! My sisters.. are a different story. Haha just kidding. I love them too!

And last and the most confusing....

Boys: Do guys have some type of beeper or some shiet that lets them know a girl is over their crap and wants to move on? Because fcuk it sure as hell seems to be the case with me. Every time I tell myself, "that's it. he's not even trying... I'm over it," you go and call me, text me, or im me. -_- Don't toy with my emotions and play with my heart. I hate to admit it but I am still in a vulnerable state and you seem to be getting the upper hand on things. So please stop if you just plan on going nowhere with this. That's one guy... and to another--I refuse to be a side "mistress" type girl... I have morals! We need to just be friends... nothing more, hopefully nothing less. Yes there are many awkward moments but lets just drop any type of feelings there are. Ok? Sorry.

This Is How We Roll ^_^

"I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine,
I've been searching but I just don't see the signs,
I know that it's out there,
There's got to be something for my soul somewhere"
- Way Back Into Love (Music & Lyrics)

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