I have so much to do this week and I don't think I will be getting much sleep. -_- I have finance homework due tomorrow, a presentation in my entrepreneur class and a technology and operations management midterm Wednesday, and another presentation due in my nonprofit class on Thursday. And for work.. I pretty much work 6:00 or 7:00AM eight hour shifts... >.< Eight and a half if you include our 30 minute "breaks."
Along with doing all that, I have to set aside at least two hours a night to work out. Yeap... I'm pretty proud of myself! I've been working out for about eleven days now. Trying to get this body in shape for Vegas (which is next week.. yeeeaah!), for Sportsfest's girls football, and of course... summer. But I started working out mainly for Vegas. I wanna look my best and for no one in particular. >=] Unless I see him. J/K But I am FINALLY starting with my trainer today! Excited, but nervous! He is damn fine... but I think he's into the same sex I'm into... if you know what I mean. ::sigh:: -_- We also started football practice yesterday... haha oh man! Practice consisted of: Realizing what a slow learner I am in sports, getting whacked in the face by a REALLY BIG white guy, ALMOST grabbing someone's crotch, realizing I need to go back to basic math, and looking like a blonde to everyone that doesn't know me. -_- And maybe even to those that do!
I've been feeling emo lately... maybe it's because of mother nature's "gift" but I dunno. It's so hard dealing with a loss of someone that was such a big part of your life... you know? It's like an empty space that can never be replaced and no matter what I try to stuff in place of it or how I try to cover it up... it's always gonna be there. I try not talking about the situation because I told myself it's time to pick up the left-over pieces and just move on but there are just too many memories. Yea... it's frustrating. Things will never be the same, too much damage has been said and done that it just seems impossible for everything to be okay. I'm just waiting for someone to take this emptiness and pain away...
"In life, there's many things that we have to learn to let go. We have to let go of situations, things, memories, people and even ourselves.
It's easy to form an attachment to people and things. When you've formed an attachment to people and things, it can be a very painful experience and feeling when you realized that it's time to let go. Even the mere thought of not having that person or thing in your life just squeezes your heart in pain.
However, there are times where you or that person has changed to the extent that it's necessary to let go of the relationship or friendship, so that each of you can fulfill your life path.
Letting go of your past and memories are also extremely hard. Even though old memories can be tormenting, yet you might hold on to the past and refuse to move forward. However, by refusing to let go of the painful past, it'll serve as a roadblock to love.
Letting go of your old self and the process of letting the new you emerge can be one of the scariest experiences in your life. But by leaving behind your old self and taking a leap of faith into the unknown, it might just reveal what you are truly capable of becoming."
-Fion
Anyways... I hope that was helpful or useful to those of you that read my blogs. And if it wasn't for some of you, it just might in the future. I need to set myself free...
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